bigg hasnt blogged in a while

Does anyone even read this type of shit? i havent blogged in forever lol

well for whoever is listening. im doing bad things. i’m handed this new life in a new city, new people. NEW PERSON. i don’t know what im even saying. but anyways. how do i know when its okay to leave the old behind for the new? not all of the old just..a part of it. i feel my heart dropping, that anxious feeling..that i just want more of what i shouldnt want. does anyone know what im talking about yet? what else do i talk about? anyways, i wait for the time, time when she gets off work, when she hits me up, when she comes, NOT when she goes. but always waiting, waiting. should i wait till we are fully established? i tell her i dont know what i want but i lie. i know i want her but i don’t know why i can’t admit it to her or myself. say that im not ready for commitment, but with her i am but i just deny it to her and myself and now im going mad. 

Dear Annie Spencer,

I regret not realizing it wasn’t a joke. I regret not holding you closer to me when we hugged, I regret not lauging with you every chance i got, making you happy, eating lunch with you more offen, i regret not sitting at that table a little bit longer than i always have at applebys, but i do not regret the wonderful time we spent together. you are my motivator, my love, my best friend, and someone who truly understood me. If i could i would trade anything to get you back but it’s too late. It feels like just yesterday we were shooting pool and laughing together. I guess God needed his angel back. You will always have a place in my heart, forever. Until we meet again my friend<3

Rest In Love; Annie Spencer.

Hooked on Grey’s Anatomy

dayyyday:

Thanks, Netflix.

OMG. i sweeeaaar i watch grey’s anatomy every night before i sleep. even when i go hang out with Da i stream it through my ipod…*sigh currently in love with marradeth.

(Source: danielledimac)